Hmm....

I have not been myself at all lately, and I am kind of seeing that today. I just want things to back to the way they were. I want my relationship with my ex to be how it was when we first got together, I want to be able to dress how I want and do what I want without people looking at me funny and judging me. I want to go back and fix my relationship with my biological dad, maybe express that I love him, even though he does not love me. This would of possibly made it where he would actually want to come around. I want to go back and see my grandma more, before she left us. This is what I regret the most, because now that she is gone, I cant not go over and just talk and I do hear "Put a coat on darling its cold" anymore. I wish she was here she would give me a big hug and tell me she loves me and everything will be ok. I want to go back and help my cousin so she wouldn't commit suicide, maybe my cousins would have there mom back and everything would of changed. I want to go back and help my friend Aaron through all his issues, so maybe he would not of got killed. Wow I can't believe that there are still so many things that I wish I would of done in life. To think this is just the beginning and there are losts more to come unfortunately.