...bored

I am now at that point, where I do not want to do anything any school anymore. I just want graduate and it be summer. Like this week when the seniors were on class trip, I was outside playing basketball and running around and with school I can not just play ball all the time. Today however I played basketball in P.E with the guys and I showed them up, Travis told me I was on his team til we graduate because I was raining three pointers left and right. Sometimes I look back and really wish I would of stuck with basketball, even if the coaches were duches. My step-dad told me yesterday that I should work out like everyday  in the summer and go out for the team at SIU. That would be amazing and a dream come true to play ball in college, like I don't even know I would go crazy if I got through try-outs. But I am no idiot, so I am not getting my hopes up and I am going to stick with going into the theater group at SIU with Tyler. I'm pretty excited that we have about two weeks left of actual school and this week I have my girlfriends prom to go to, and the weekend after that I have my own prom, then the weekend after that it is finally GRADUATION!!!!!!! May 22, 2011 is going to be the happiest day of my life, just sayin'.

Hahaha!

Hacked! Don't leave your blog open, Kayleah. =)

NOTHING

This week is slowly dragging on and it sucks big time, I can not wait til graduation and be able to hang out with my best friends on summer days before college. Even now it feels like summer, and it sucks because I just want to be outside all the time rather than at school or at work. I bet everyone is starting to have this feeling as well even teachers who strive to make our lives hell. So hopefully time picks up speed and the next month flies by, even though when the time is near and we graduate it is going to be a very emotional day. But my bright side is I'm not leaving Tyler I will be going to SIU with him, I am so excited for our adventure of going grocery shopping together and everything. God he is so cute. Tyler if your reading this I love you so much man :). If your anyone else, you can not compete with my man sorry (just kidden). Oh and those that still have a year or so here all I can say is make the best of it and good luck.

This is all I have to really say, my mind is so blank right now and I have nothing clever to say. So that's all thank you for your time. BYE.




this is what my mind consists of right now.

MY FRIENDS ARE GAY!!!! (well not really)

THIS BLOG DESERVES TO BE IN ALL CAPS, BECAUSE MY FRIENDS ARE BEING A**HOLES. THEY ARE MAD AT ME BECAUSE WE DID NOT HANG OUT THIS WEEKEND, EVEN THOUGH WE HANG LIKE EVERY WEEKEND. THAT IS WHY TYLER AND MACI ARE MAD AT ME. HOWEVER, KIRSTYN JUST FLAT OUT TOLD ME SHE HATES ME :( GOD THAT TORE MY POOR LITTLE HEART UP EVEN MORE. I HOPE THEY REALIZE THAT I AM SORRY AND I WILL HANG WITH THEM THIS WEEKEND PLUS ME AND TYLER NEED TO GO TUX SHOPPING FOR PROM ANYWAYS. I HOPE THEY FORGIVE ME FOR MY "WRONG DOING" AND WE ARE ALL HAPPY GO LUCKY, BESIDES KIRSTYN (SHE HAS NO SOUL) SO SHE WOULD NEVER BE HAPPY GO LUCKY. HMMM...IM SORRY TYLER, MACI, AND KIRSTYN. KIRSTYN IS THERE ANY WAY WE CAN BE BEST FRIENDS AGAIN? THAT IS ALL FOR NOW. BYE.

Hmm....

I have not been myself at all lately, and I am kind of seeing that today. I just want things to back to the way they were. I want my relationship with my ex to be how it was when we first got together, I want to be able to dress how I want and do what I want without people looking at me funny and judging me. I want to go back and fix my relationship with my biological dad, maybe express that I love him, even though he does not love me. This would of possibly made it where he would actually want to come around. I want to go back and see my grandma more, before she left us. This is what I regret the most, because now that she is gone, I cant not go over and just talk and I do hear "Put a coat on darling its cold" anymore. I wish she was here she would give me a big hug and tell me she loves me and everything will be ok. I want to go back and help my cousin so she wouldn't commit suicide, maybe my cousins would have there mom back and everything would of changed. I want to go back and help my friend Aaron through all his issues, so maybe he would not of got killed. Wow I can't believe that there are still so many things that I wish I would of done in life. To think this is just the beginning and there are losts more to come unfortunately.

LOST

I've been very stressed here lately and it's driving me insane. Especially school and my love life those are my two big-a-boos that I am having issues with. Ugh it's so frustrating...anyone else here super stressed? I feel like I'm going crazy and I'm the only one that feels this way at the moment.

But hey things are looking up like I had a great Friday night with my three best friends Maci, Tyler, and Kirstyn. Weiner Works was pretty awesome. However the car ride there and back was the best it was so open and everything. Then Walmart came around and I was caught looking at condoms and sex gel. What a way to end the night.

Then Saturday me, Tyler, Destini, and Robin went to the movies at midnight and seen Red Riding Hood it was very good and awesome and it was fun being the only four in the theater. The best part was when my cousin found out who the actual wolf was she freaked and jumped into her sit. Then we left there and went o Steak n' Shake and who got the bill for everyone? Thats right this kid right here did so it put a hole in my check book, but hey it cost to have a good time. So we got home at like 4:30 a.m and I got to sleep at 6 and woke up at 7 for work so safe to say work Sunday morning was not fun at all.

Then today in P.E we had a bet going in archery and Hunter's mom said she would give the person that shot the best $5.00 and guess who won that...yeah thats right that was me as well. So today is looking pretty dang good.

:( BURNED

I feel like everyone is out to get me all of a sudden it's a bad situation to be in trust me. I'm sorry for being a douche-bag to everyone I was being a douche-bag to. I feel pretty low for breaking some promises to a certain friend of mine. I hope this friend will forgive me, even though I am a complete idiot and I understand completely why she hates me. Well never-mind there is no hope of her forgiving me she wants nothing to do with me, well isn't this just freaking dandy.

I wish there was a way I could fix this and make everything right, like it was before when everything seemed fine. But, I have no idea what to do anymore I'm slowly losing hope not in you but in myself. You tell me to just leave you alone and that you hate me, but I just can't not like this anyways. I'm trying my hardest not to hurt you or make you mad at me, but everything I do seems to push you away even more. I guess this is just the story of my life and I should just skip all the chapters and go straight to the end, since this is the repeating pattern of my life.

Hmmm...well i'm kind of engaged

Well this weekend was pretty awesome and so many things have happened that I don't even know where to begin..I guess I will start off by saying the play went very well my grandma, uncle, and dad came from Tennessee and surprised me and Destini. I was so happy to see them I haven't seen my dad in like a year it was so great. Well after our play Friday we went to Steak n' Shake with them and I got to see Ben it was like the best night ever to bad it had to end. Then Saturday at scholastic bowl I kind of cuddled with Justin Gann when I meant to cuddle up to Tyler...so that was very embarrassing.

Then Sunday came along and I was bored out of my mind all day and I came up with the idea of going to the movies so me and Jess went to the movies and Brianna and her girlfriend was there, well I went to pee and Brianna followed me and basically kissed me and told me she wants to be with me and she would do anything so enough said I was happy as hell to get my baby back.

Monday morning I went to pick Brianna up and all that kept crossing my mind was how happy I am to be with her and how much I never want to loose her again. So we went to the mall and caught up with some friends and her and her friends went to walk around and I was by myself, I went and looked at some rings and I found one I really liked so I get it and right in the middle of the mall I knelled down and asked her to marry me, because I never wanted to loose her again, it was the worse feeling in the world she cried and said yes, and the people around us was cheering and yelling for us it was great.

Sooo....

I hate people that don't get the hint like my CRAZY ex Brianna she broke up with me and at that point I really didn't care at all. So I told her to leave me alone I didn't want anything to do with her, but no of course not all she does is text me and she has a new girlfriend and everything.

So girls I got a question for you if you broke up with someone and they did nothing wrong to you would you burn their stuff? That's exactly what she did..its awesome I think I'm out two t-shirts and a sweatshirt but still why would she do that when I did nothing to her at all. Oh well I think I might have a bonfire of my own and get rid of everything that she left over at my house.

So other than than my week has been pretty good and the weekend is going to be even better :)...but I have to end this by saying GO TO THE PLAY FRIDAY AND SATURDAY at 7 p.m!!!!!!

Party time

So this weekend is going to be the best weekend I've had in a very long time. Right after play practice me and my sister are heading to Mattoon. She is going to hang out with her boyfriend Jason and I am going to chill with Codi and her girlfriend...I swear we are going to keep it legal (yeah right). It's just going to be a very awesome weekend.

So what to talk about? It's been a pretty laid back boring week. Hmmm...well I guess I will just explain that Tyler VanOstrand my husband is not here today so my Friday has been sad. Least my best friend Kirstyn is here so that is a great thing, and so is my other best friend Maci...hmm this blog is really dull and boring. I'm just going to get off of here and play some games.

Comment me with your plans for the weekend.

Lunch-Time Talk/Football

So like this may make me sound like a fat kid, but my favorite time at school is lunch. Just because my friends make it fun, and when I go in there upset or something I leave laughing my a** off. Today January 25th at lunch was pretty awkward. So we started off by feeding our faces and not saying much, but then Maci brought up this not so amazing plan of coming over to my house this weekend and making me dress and act like a girl. I started to chuckle, just knowing this was never going to happen. Well then Kirstyn and Tyler told her that they seen the "girly" picture of me on my phone and all they could see was boobies, so this made everyone laugh like crazy mother F***ers.....I felt so weird and to top it off Tyler said that he seen them, meaning in the picture but no Kirstyn and Maci have to have dirty minds and take it the wrong way...But it was a good afternoon at the lunch table.

OK so like I am so excited for the Superbowl my Packers are going and I feel like Rodgers will throw three touchdowns and run in two of his own. I think he really wants to show everyone he is the man and finally let people know that he was the better choice out of him and Brett Farve. I can't wait the Steelers are going down...comment and let me know what you think will go down Superbowl day.

HMMMM???

Well this weekend went very well, I mean I actually had fun especially when I went out with my amazing girlfriend Brianna, and the coolest group of people that included Maci Owens, Kirstyn Showalter, Tyler VanOstrand, and this other girl named Brianna. That night was crazy we went out to eat at that new Chinesse place in Danville, and my girl and Kirstyn seemed to get along very well. So they decided to be sneaky and place a lobster on Maci's seat when she got up to get more food, trying to get her to sit on it. Well Maci turned the cards around and put the lobster in Kirstyn's purse and wow it was just a fun night. Well after dinner we went to go see Chet at work, the problem is we got there and there was no Chet :(...So we went to get in our rides and this weird HoBo looking guy looked at me and Brianna because we were holding hands and he told us to go to church, we all started laughing even though most of us was alittle freaked out. Well we sat in the parking lot and argued about what to do next so I said let's go to Mike's Tattoo and Piercing, so we did and i ended up getting my eyebrow pierced. What a way to end a great night :) I love you guys and my baby lol can't wait to hang again.

Well me and my baby went out to eat on Sunday night and we went to see Ben at Steak n Shake, and this really makes me seem like a fat a**, but I went to move my silverware and I f'd my back up so bad, we went back to my house and all I did was lay in bed in pain and I did this like all day Monday and all day Tuesday and I'm hoping to go to school tomorrow, but if this pain don't go away I just can't do it. Well it's about time I get off of here and drug myself up again so see ya :)

Blogging the Pain Away :(

So I've realized relationships suck...well for me at least. I try being sweet and stuff and NOOOOO GIRL has ever appreciated it. It's ridiculous...the END.

birthDAY

Well Friday January 7th was my birthday..I was pretty excited just because I was turning the BIG 18 and now I can vote and buy lottery tickets. I am going to be a great citizen and do my responsibility and get out there and vote next go around. Well anyways on my birthday I went out to dinner with my family and had a great time, well before we left I got my gift a brand new HDTV I was happy and I couldn't wait to watch some gridiron.

Well after Friday my weekend went down the drain, like for real I believe I am soon going to be single, because my girlfriend don't even act like she wants to be with me and she's acting so distant and I have no idea what I did to her. Oh well I guess, it's whatever I'm going to let her get to me. I hope everything works out, and if not I'll learn to forgive and FORGET!!

Hmmm....well let's see I really don't like a certain science teacher here at the school that's 8 ft tall with a bald head. He's such a jerk...just saying...haha RANDOM I KNOW :)

RANDOMNESSS

So like my Christmas break was soooo boring and stupid, because my butthead girlfriend (not BRIANNA) was at her dads house basically the whole time. I am so glad to be back at school where I have a routine and I can socialize with all my buddies and my girl. Today was fun in math class, I was getting some mean looks by a guy I will not mention for safety purposes. Then the meanest teacher alive gave us homework, he seemed extra grouchy today which sucked big time for us.

Now I am blogging about nothing, but least I am happy doing it, I guess thats all that really matters. I have been really happy for the past two days and its freakin amazing. Errybody was gettin on my case for my sad facebook status's so I decided I would stop and good thing I did because my gurl is actually being nice and crap which I am not used to because my ex Brianna was a total B**** and cheated on me everyday of our relationship. The only thing that makes me mad is errybody is betting on how long me and my girlfriend will be together like really what the hell????

So how has errybody been? JusT comment and let me know how your doin or something like that...OK BYE now!